“I think some of my ribs want to run away.
I don’t blame them. After all,
my body is a
uneven and dismay and rebellion and
nothing seems to fit in quite right. It doesn’t surprise me
that they often don’t want to
live in a place like that.
My spine is made of kindergarten rebels that don’t like
to stand in line.
They throw tantrums and they cry and they
When I fold over to touch my toes, the
mountain on my back
(it lies just west of center)
sticks out as if it
fears it’s been forgotten.
I promise it never is, but it insists every time.
The different sides of my waist
don’t get along. They seem like they should belong to
different bodies, but they’re stuck together in
My hips, bless their naïve hearts, are frozen
lopsided in a dance.
I can understand
why a few of my ribs seem to be trying to
break away from the rest.
while the rest of my body might refuse to be nice and
follow the rules, my
heart at least is where is should be, and
it beats life persistently through me no matter
how many reasons it has to stop. And I think maybe
Some of my ribs may want to run away,
but I don’t think they really mean it.”—Adriana NC | Some of My Ribs (via forscoliosis)
I hope you will be okay with the fact that I am
I hope you’ll get used to seeing different
bodies when you look at me
from different directions.
When you hold my waist and one hand has
more to grab on to,
I hope you’ll forgive me.
When you trace your fingers down my
I hope you don’t mind taking the scenic route that doesn’t go
straight from skull to hip.
I hope you don’t care that my body is too
rebellious to be even.
And I hope you don’t think that I am too
twisted to be
beautiful.”—Adriana NC | I Hope You Don’t Think What I Think (via forscoliosis)
I’m not sure that you fully understand what i, and everyone else with this disease is going through.
Firstly, there is the near constant back pain. Walking hurts. Standing hurts. Sitting down hurts. While sitting down is a nice rest for you, it causes muscle spasms and severe aches for us. A school day involving six hours of sitting down is almost unbearable. Most nights i cant get to sleep because of the pain that i am going through.
Not only is my spine affected, your spine contains your spinal chord. Our spines c u r v e twisting and distorting arguably one of the most important and dangerous parts in your body. If you have ever seen somebody with a possible spinal injury on a spinal board, because that sort of injury needs to be treated with care.
Not only is my spine distorted, my ribs, hips and legs are affected too. I have ligament stress in my knees and it is constantly swollen and painful with no cure. My ribs are always sore as due to my back not being straight, neither are they and it is not fun. My spine rotates in my chest, which takes up space in my chest so my lungs cannot fill to their full capacity. When i try to run it feels like a fire in my chest like i am suffocating, yet i still give 1500 my best effort. Some days i can barely breathe just walking. Nobody notices, I keep it to myself as not to bother anyone, but that does NOT mean it is not there.
Then there are the psychological hits. I don’t know if you have noticed, but young people care about their appearance, a lot. To have scoliosis not only makes you feel, alone, afraid, and worried about surgery or a future of pain and worrying about things such as childbirth and aging, but it also changes the way your body looks. Young people are constantly worrying about whether they are too fat or too thin, and if they are sitting right or if their hair looks ok, so scoliosis is another thing to add to that list of worries. can people see it today, and oh god i look hideously wonky in that picture is not something anything anybody wants to think and people finding out about my scoliosis and saying “ew that’s so weird/gross” does not help.
anyone with scoliosis, no matter how big or small should not be put down because of it, or told to “get over it”. it is our personal problem not yours, us having it and being proud of it, even through the pain does not affect you in any way.
everyone has their baggage, and this is ours.
I am not in the slightest sorry about it either. please unfollow me, and think about the words you cant even say off of anon before you assume things and don’t consider how a person may be feeling inside.
We may have scoliosis, but we are not spineless, and i am willing to defend anyone else who has it, because i know it isn’t easy, but we can get through this. Together. So yeah i post about it and who cares. Its MY blog.